I feel like a zombie right now….. OK, it’s not an emo post hehehhe…
I just didn’t sleep well last night. My sleep is different from other people’s. How to explain this? Hmmmm….
Unlike other people whose sleep just happen naturally, mine is so complicated. Mine has to have effort into it….
Most people, like my Mom, from the moment she lays down in bed, few seconds or minutes and she’s sound asleep, while I have to wait for like 15-30 minutes…
Then the next morning, like this morning, I woke up feeling so tired. Kind of weird right because you’re suppose to feel rested after sleeping. I suffered from this for like two or so years now. Once I woke up feeling tired, it’s just so hard to do anything, so hard to work, hard to focus, my eyes hurt, my back hurts.
This is the reason why sleep is very important to me. Reason why I put in a lot of effort in preparation for sleeping.
I’m conscious not to take even a hint of caffeine, as that would make me have wide open eyes through the night. (The last time, I made Mocha-Chocolate Cupcakes, had one for dessert, I forgot there’s coffee in it, I didn’t sleep even a minute.)
My pillows should be the right tenderness(?). Blanket has to be real smooth or my legs will feel itchy. My bed and mattress, I have to switch from one that’s thick and one that’s thin, to prevent my back from hurting and even worse not being able to sleep at all.
I need silence. No sound at all the better. And black-out curtains. Sound proof windows. I miss my room in Singapore. They have all that, that’s why I sleep very well there. And no tricycle sound.
Opposite of myself. hehehe….
When I was still working in hotels, that was something. See we have midnight shifts. Sometimes, it last a week. I prefer that than a three-four day shift. Not enough time for my biological clock to adjust. It’s so hard when from a midnight shift (2230H-0800H) you have to work PM shift (1330H-2300H). That’s why during those times, I didn’t have a life outside work. I have to have enough sleep for me to perform properly. I can’t do what my colleagues then was doing, go out for a night of partying, usually until 0500H, then head to work at 0700H with no sleep at all. I can’t last a nine and a half work day with no sleep, I’d feel like my head is floating.
If I experience continuous sleep deprivation, I’d feel down and sad, will feel like I’m gaining weight like crazy.
Luckily, a few months ago, when I wanted to donate blood in a blood drive, they checked my blood and found out I was near anemic, so they prescribed some ferrous sulfate. Wow! That was the nicest sleep I had in years! I was so happy hehehhe…..
If it’s my choice, I’d prefer to be the type whom you could throw in anywhere, and after a few seconds will be snoring happy. Like this baby.
I wouldn’t wish this for our neighbor’s nosy maid, it’s just so hard.
Is it too much to ask for a good night sleep?
I believe it’s basic human’s right.
P.S. Pardon me, I have to sleep now, yes at 1210H, my body is begging me to.