Been in a confusing situation for a long time now. Like how I described it before, it’s like a limbo. Nobody likes to be in one but when you’re caught in it, make a decision and stick to it.

Have I made a decision? NO. Or is it a yes? I don’t know how to describe this point I ended up in.

Either is fine with me. Do something, it’s alright with me. Do nothing, fine with me as well. I guess that’s the conclusion. I have made up my mind to accept either way that’s going to happen.

I guess I came to this point where I’m just too tired that whatever goes my way I am going to accept it wholeheartedly.

That is the keyword, acceptance. I just don’t question anymore. What’s the point? Whatever it is, bring it.

Or am I just being the stubborn me again? should I listen to most people’s advice? Hmmmmn… Whichever, it is still up to me, I have the final say.

I’m just not happy with the fact that this is happening at this time of the year. Why? Why now? I used to love this season. Still love it, it’s just these past years it hasn’t been nice. Lot’s of not so happy memories. I know who started this. Hmmn…. Kinulam yata ako…..

Whatever. I don’t care.

This too shall pass.

I have this new belief now. I have to celebrate my birthday or any major occasion or else my life would suck.

Huh?!

Yeah I know. Sounds crazy. But I have a couple of incidences wherein this happened.

When I graduated from college, we just went out to eat to celebrate, in my favorite restaurant, in Spices in Peninsula Manila. Of course, like everyone else in my class (or the graduating class of 2006) I also started sending away my resume. Two months passed and I can’t seem to find a job I like. I might get accepted in a hotel but I’m not ok with for example salary, working hours, benefits etc… So nothing fits…

Then for some reason I decided to celebrate my graduation by cooking and baking… ( I’m not sure if I really cooked to celebrate or I was just justifying my cooking for no reason)… So I cooked a few dishes then I got a job I liked.

Then last year, I was in Singapore for my birthday. We just ate out with a friend. Turned out this year is a big blah.

My birthday dinner last year.

So never again.

This time I made some effort in planning and preparing the food. I don’t want us to celebrate in a malls (so usual) and it’s just not what I’m “feeling” this time around. I want it to be a family event. That even my Mom and my cousin, Auntie, and my niece and nephew will enjoy too not just the celebrant. So either go swimming in Subic or Batangas. Such an out of town event for sure is pricey. So I thought of having an outdoor with Tagaytay’s cool breeze.

I went there last July, on a weekday. I like it that it’s not crowded. And I saw some new attractions there. So decided to come back.

I invited my Auntie and my cousin and her two kids… Just a very small event, just family. My Dad is abroad, my Nanay is too far, and on and on. So just us. I guess the more intimate the better.

So the night before my birthday they came over.

I’m not used to having kids around anymore. I realized I missed having kids roaming around, hearing their voices, just their mere presence livens up the house.

Here are my guests.

This is my niece Pia. She’s 14 months old. I guess she’s getting dizzy here hehehe….

And behind her is her older brother Vincent…

She’s so cute! She’s so tiny, and yet eats a lot. Everytime you intend to feed her something, she will open her mouth so wide… So cute! She’s so tiny but she can run already. She’s smart too. She knows how to wear her slippers. So malambing pa.

Her Lola, my Auntie was telling me and my Mom that Pia took a trait from me, she also climbs stairs and windows that make them nervous, like I how I was when I was Pia’s age.

Oh gosh, I’m so obvious, I can’t deny I have favoritism here heehehhe…..

My cousin and aunt’s photos I’ll post next. And of course Mommy and I hehheh….

Because all of us love Jolibee’s spaghetti, I cooked that too.

After it was cooked, all of us can’t wait to have some.

I marinate the chicken wings in a marinade I invented hehehh…. I was too lazy to search for one… Just instincts… When it smelled great I got a bit calm hehehh….

Then I prepared the salsa for the Bangus‘ tummy, so it acts as the marinade too.

Then I baked my own cake. I decided it will be mocha cake. It’s my favorite….

My home made mocha chiffon cake with no melt butter icing…..

Yum, yum!

So the next day off we go to Tagaytay.

Every time I have to leave the country, I always kind of hate the idea of packing, checking in and being on queue, waiting for boarding time, not to mention my butt always ending up in pain for sitting  for hours in the plane, basically everything that has to do with air travel.

Not to mention the “I’m-happy-to-go-but-I’m-leaving-someone-behind” part. You know how heavy your heart is? Even though I’m always back in just weeks I still feel that, EVERYTIME.

The only nice part I look forward to? The plane’s taking off and landing parts…..

So exciting!

There’s just something about it. It has always intrigued me. How the plane defies gravity. I know it can be explained by science but for someone who doesn’t get science that well (hehehe) that’s still fascinating….

I hope someone could explain to me how planes do that, in layman’s term.

I have an idea from what I read and what I was able to “get”.

My theory about how a plane flies

The plane’s engine “supplies” hot air beneath it’s wings. Hot air naturally has to go up. So when the plane blows hot air in it’s wings, plus buwelo (enough flight?) then the plane will fly. Yeah, this is my theory.

See I’ve always been wanting to take a video of the plane’s landing and take off. Was only able to do so the last time I left. I have to say, it was pretty nice. I like how it excites me. I have to admit, there’s a tiny tiny bit of nervousness in the deepest part of me heehehe…. And once I get seated, a lot of emotions overpower me.

Oh and you can see our house from this video hehehe…. You can see SM Bacoor and we are very close from SM. *wink!*

Take off!

Exciting right? I didn’t expect the sight I saw. Very beautiful! Every time I watch these videos, I feel like I’m there.

Then after this take off, its hours or seating and waiting for hours to pass me by. I ate a whole lot of food, mind you. As
in I finished two bags of chips, one small bottle of water, one bottle of orange juice and some nuts. When I’m bored, I eat. When I’m bored I gain weight.

I really can’t stand sitting for hours. Understandable because i’m someone who always multitask even if I dont have to.

Landing! Finally!

There’s always some kind of relief I’m feeling every time it’s landing time, well aside from the excitement. I’m not scared of landing. I just have some kind of doubts? Well, planes still crash, you know. Even in large planes. Remember Air France?

Never mind, I love travelling and I will continue doing this as long as possible. I hope I could explore other countries as well, most especially in Europe. Oh wow!

I just wish I have a job that will pay me to travel. Oh wow!