Finally the sun is shining
Aug 10th, 2012 by niceyfemme

Whoah after almost two weeks of strong rains and floods (thank God we were safe from floods in our village), the sun finally made it’s awaited appearance today.

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I am so grateful that we were spared. We actually had it easy. No floods, and we had electricity. The television was on the whole day for news and my heart felt a constant pinch every time I see people suffering. They really had it hard. People in the roofs of their houses because the whole first level was already submerged in water, people needing food, and people in evacuation centers squeezing their bodies to be sure they are safe.  Some billionaire can give them TAG Heuer watches and they’d thank you just as much as if you give them a plate of rice.

Proud to be a Hanson Fan!
Jan 21st, 2012 by niceyfemme

And has been for the last 15 years.

A 12 year old 6th grader I was. Fell in love with these girly looking boys (blame their long hair) but really it is their music that swept me off of my feet but it doesn’t hurt that they’re so good looking and charming and funny.

(Just some of my Hanson stuff as some are stored in a very big box as I need more space in my room.)

I remember to always buy their cd’s in multiple numbers to have myself some back up if ever something happens to the first one I’m using, their albums are that important to me. I cannot even imagine myself not listening to their Middle of Nowhere cd. It is always in my Sony discman and I wouldn’t leave home without it. I listen to their beautiful voice from the moment I wake up and just before I sleep. MTV was always on because their video might come up and I’d go crazy if I miss it. Just seeing them made me giddy with happiness.

Obsessing over them didn’t stop there. I even bought those imported magazines especially if they’re in the cover spending 6th grader allowance on them. And they’re not cheap! One magazine cost Php 300! And sometimes even more expensive and that was on year 1997-1998. But I didn’t mind as  I loved reading anything about them. I know their favorite food, hobbies and so on. That made me feel like I knew them personally and somehow there’s a connection between us even though in reality they might not be sure that they have a Filipino fan as crazy as I was back then.

The walls of my rooms was full of their posters. My whole clan knows how crazy I was for them and they gave me gifts Hanson related. Oh and I even joined a Channel V contest that would bring the winner to Hong Kong to watch their concert and meet them. Man, I sent too many entries. I didn’t win the grand prize but they sent me some Hanson thingies including their cd. I love that point in my life, I was floating, high with Hanson. ♥

Of course life brings sadness as well. Their music helped me go through it. When no one understood, they did, through their music. There was a time in my life when I can’t fit in, ‘Weird’ was the song of my life then. Then ‘I Will Come To you’ was next.

Then year 2003 came. I was in the school’s library/internet area. I read that Taylor got married. That crushed me. Tears fell down my cheeks and I was unconscious about it. It was only when my friend asked why I was crying that brought me back to reality.

Then year 2004 Hanson finally came to the Philippines for a concert, the event I was waiting for since 1997. BUT I wasn’t able to go. That really got to me and years has passed I still have that regret of not seeing Taylor in person. I wondered if they’re ever going back. Then last November I read that they’re coming here!!! I was so happy and started to talk about it in Facebook. BUT. I still wasn’t sure if I can come. My predicament then was that March is way too far ahead for me to be sure that I am in the Philippines by then. So I didn’t buy then. Come January, and after thinking about it a lot of times, I gave in. I’d make a way to be here by March. I NEED TO SEE TAYLOR IN PERSON. That’s my lifelong dream haha. Really. I have wished for that to happen so many times before and now there’s this chance of it happening and I won’t let it pass me again.

I finally have my ticket! Yey! Taylor, Ike and Zac I’ll be seeing you! Can’t wait for March.

Here’s the seat map.

Ticket Prices:

For Manila Tickets Call 911 5555
Patron VIP 4770
Patron 3710
Lower Box 3180
Upper Box A 2650
Upper Box B 1590
Gen Ad 530

For Cebu Tickets Call 232 6888 514 3500 for reservations

VIP 3710
Gold 3180
Silver 2120
SP Balcony 1590
Bronze 1060
Balcony 636

Got all these info from Facebook.

Lastly, I would LOVE to meet them in person (as in in a meet and greet kind of thing) but I think I’d freeze and I don’t want to make myself look stupid in front of them. So nah!

Now everyone who call themselves Hanson fans need to show support by going to their concert and not just blab about being one and not do anything. Come and enjoy with fellow Hanson fans. Let’s enjoy their music together. Who knows when they’re coming back here so don’t let the chance pass you by. Buy your tickets now. 🙂





A Story of Appreciation
Jan 31st, 2011 by niceyfemme

I thought this is something worth sharing to everyone.

And I love you Mommy and Daddy with all my heart. ♥♥♥ Thank you, and I can’t thank you both enough. I hope you know how much I appreciate you and the things you do for me. Please know that everyday when I say I love you, I speak from my heart and I truly mean it every time.

One young academically excellent person went to apply for a managerial position in a big company.

He passed the first interview, the director did the last interview, made the last decision.

The director discovered from the CV that the youth’s academic achievements were excellent all the way, from the secondary school until the postgraduate research, never had a year when he did not score.

The director asked, “Did you obtain any scholarships in school?” the youth answered “none”.

The director asked, ” Was it your father who paid for your school fees?” The youth answered, “My father passed away when I was one year old, it was my mother who paid for my school fees.

The director asked, ” Where did your mother work?” The youth answered, “My mother worked as clothes cleaner. The director requested the youth to show his hands. The youth showed a pair of hands that were smooth and perfect.

The director asked, ” Have you ever helped your mother wash the clothes before?”

The youth answered, “Never, my mother always wanted me to study and read more books. Furthermore, my mother can wash clothes faster than me.

The director said, “I have a request. When you go back today, go and clean your mother’s hands, and then see me tomorrow morning.*

The youth felt that his chance of landing the job was high. When he went back, he happily requested his mother to let him clean her hands. His mother felt strange, happy but with mixed feelings, she showed her hands to the kid.

The youth cleaned his mother’s hands slowly. His tear fell as he did that. It was the first time he noticed that his mother’s hands were so wrinkled, and there were so many bruises in her hands. Some bruises were so painful that his mother shivered when they were cleaned with water.

This was the first time the youth realized that it was this pair of hands that washed the clothes everyday to enable him to pay the school fee. The bruises in the mother’s hands were the price that the mother had to pay for his graduation, academic excellence and his future.

After finishing the cleaning of his mother hands, the youth quietly washed all the remaining clothes for his mother.

That night, mother and son talked for a very long time.

Next morning, the youth went to the director’s office.

The Director noticed the tears in the youth’s eyes, asked: ” Can you tell me what have you done and learned yesterday in your house?”

The youth answered, ” I cleaned my mother’s hand, and also finished cleaning all the remaining clothes’

The Director asked, ” please tell me your feelings.”

The youth said,

Number 1, I know now what is appreciation. Without my mother, there would not be a successful me today.

Number 2, by working together and helping my mother, only I now realize how difficult and tough it is to get something done.

Number 3, I have come to appreciate the importance and value of family relationship.

The director said, ” This is what I am looking for to be my manager.

I want to recruit a person who can appreciate the help of others, a person who knows the sufferings of others to get things done, and a person who would not put money as his only goal in life. You are hired.

Later on, this young person worked very hard, and received the respect of his subordinates. Every employee worked diligently and as a team. The company’s performance improved tremendously.


A child, who has been protected and habitually given whatever he wanted, would develop “entitlement mentality” and would always put himself first. He would be ignorant of his parent’s efforts. When he starts work, he assumes that every person must listen to him, and when he becomes a manager, he would never know the sufferings of his employees and would always blame others. For this kind of people, who may be good academically, may be successful for a while, but eventually would not feel sense of achievement. He will grumble and be full of hatred and fight for more. If we are this kind of protective parents, are we really showing love or are we destroying the kid instead?*

You can let your kid live in a big house, eat a good meal, learn piano, watch a big screen TV. But when you are cutting grass, please let them experience it. After a meal, let them wash their plates and bowls together with their brothers and sisters. It is not because you do not have money to hire a maid, but it is because you want to love them in a right way. You want them to understand, no matter how rich their parents are, one day their hair will grow gray, same as the mother of that young person. The most important thing is your kid learns how to appreciate the effort and experience the difficulty and learns the ability to work with others to get things done.

This may change somebody’s fate…

I miss you crazy Kaka
Sep 2nd, 2010 by niceyfemme

This is one of the reasons why I don’t like getting attached to people and animals, you get used to their presence and you long for it. You long for the moments with them. That’s why the moment I first met Kaka the sweet cat I knew I shouldn’t let my guard down and let myself get close to her since we don’t own her. Now I miss everything about her, like when she smells my eyes, nose and lips when I’m really tired, when she act all funny because she got scared of some noise, when she sees us like we are in scary halloween costumes and she runs back and forth and lastly even when she’d make up noise in the middle of the night to wake us up.

I want to see her again but it’s just not possible. There is pain in the heart whenever I remember and miss her. What to do? I know that if Kaka can speak up and choose, she will choose to be with us. And we want to keep her too, she always gave us reasons to smile and laugh.

I need to guard myself much more carefully next time, to never let myself get close to someone who might leave me. That’s one reason why I kept on breaking up with Bee during the first few months of our relationship, but through the years we’ve been together, he somehow showed me he is here to stay. But still I have to admit I still need reassurance everyday to calm my crazy nerves.

Hard times
Aug 27th, 2010 by niceyfemme

This week has been like a nightmare to me. Scared for our dear lives and disappointing turn of events.

Last Sunday, we had to move from one place to another which turned out to be a flat from hell. The experience is like from those horror/thriller/slasher movies.

Imagine a poorly lighted creepy house filled with antiques and rubbish. Smelled weird too. When we moved in we discovered that a wall is not concrete, a 6×4 feet open space has been covered with school paper and the owner used two cabinets to cover it up. What’s bad is that the owner is just sleeping outside the room. What’s even more scary is the hole in the paper where the owners fist went through to reach for the door knob and go in out room anytime. He also had a weird vibe in him. He kept on saying my name with every sentence he says and it seemed like he’s only interested in talking to me and not the same with Bee.

Then came the time when we needed to use the toilet and we were shocked to discover that the toilet bowl doesn’t flush, the lavatory was clogged and the toilet seemed like it’s not been used for a long time. So many things we discovered that night and I knew I can’t stay there a day longer.  I wasn’t able to sleep that night. I was crying. And Bee wasn’t able to sleep either and just kept on guarding.

The next day right straight from work, Bee and I took all out stuff from that place and planned to move somewhere else who backed out last minute. We got in touch with the agent but he wan’t able to help us find a new place in such a short time that’s why we ended up having nowhere to go. It was already 10:30 p.m and Bee was still calling his friends and colleagues for a temporary place to stay in while I keep on searching online for a new place to rent. I was exhausted from the last days move and lack of sleep and the whole day’s work while we were already hungry and have really bad headache. Add in the rain that made moving and carrying all our clothes and stuff even harder. I was close to breaking down. Last minute we were able to find a place.

Next day we had to work and disappointing things started to unravel in front of my eyes. Things I didn’t sign up for I had to do. Just the hardest things. I realized it’s not my fault that I can’t handle those things. I am a woman who has physical limitations. But if I walk away, I will be disappointing the people closest to my heart, same with myself, I will be disappointing myself too. I have worked hard for this thing for half a year and in just two days it was gone. There’s nothing I can do. My health should be my priority.

I was so down, I was at my lowest point this year. Now I have made a decision and I am scared and very sad. The truth is I just want to lay down in bed with my electric blanket and never leave, I was that scared.  But I have to move on no matter how hard it is. That’s how life is.

I just have to look at the only good thing from this experience. I realized that a Mother’s love and understanding is infinite. I love you Mommy and thank you for never stopping to love and support me. Same with Bee. Now I am truly sure that you are the one for me. I don’t think anyone else can give me the understanding, patience and support you showed me these past days.  Thank you to Mommy and Bee for not giving up on me and Daddy too. I breathe and live because of all of you.

Aug 27th, 2010 by niceyfemme

It is amazing what great PR work can do to a countries image. They can over hype the good things and make it appear better than it seems and in contrast, they will do a complete news black out to negative things to protect their image.

Perfect example is the country where I am now and our home, Philippines. Unfortunately, Philippines is not good in keeping our image on a positive light. Most westerners only think of Abu Sayyaff  when they hear of the name Philippines and terror comes with it. We have great natural resources like close to paradise beaches that are left unknown by the world. Most westerners and even other Asians think that the Philippines is a scary place.

Let me just put it this way. What you hear about this country Philippines is  what is really happening. Without any cover up, no nothing as PR is not one thing this country has invested on compared to this another Southeast Asian country where image is everything. Even the journalists/media is not allowed to go against the government. But I have to admit, all the cover up and great PR releases did this country good.

Sometimes I hate the hypocrisy but I understand why this is done by them. For the tourism. They have better government. I am so jealous for us and I hate that we have such very negative image in the world especially with the hostage taking situation recently which killed eight Hong Kong citizens.

It’s like two men, one is dressed in parish clothing, the other just let the world to see all it’s scars bruises and everything. In reality, they both have something to hide, it’s just the other knows how to handle himself better by wearing better clothes.

Please no hatred here. That could have happened anywhere. It happened in Canada before. It can happen anywhere. Please no judgment as we do not judge the whole Hong Kong for every Filipino who experience abuse in HK.

Aug 27th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I haven’t been able to update for the longest time. Why? Because to say that I had a hard time the last weeks was an understatement. Actually it was hell. Emotionally I was drained.

The thing that I’ve been waiting for half a year and caused me to go through a roller coaster ride of emotions turned out a big disastrous misfit to me. I hate it. There are things that only a man can do, accept it or not. I am not strong enough to do. And that isn’t what I signed up for. Health is still most important for me.

I didn’t want to quit as I am not only thinking about myself here, but of the people I hold dearest to my heart. Given the situation, there’s nothing I can do. I requested for a transfer but denied. Some people can be heartless and close minded. I had no choice but to leave. It was not an easy decision to make, in fact I experienced hell. It didn’t matter that it gave me coverage like North Carolina health insurance would. I had to go on and think of other ways to do. I have to. I can’t be that selfish to only think of myself.

It’s too late James Yap
Aug 3rd, 2010 by niceyfemme

Hmmn… Ok I am writing this because I am so annoyed with James Yap and the likes of him. REALLY.

My point of view is from everything I read, like everyone else. But then Kris has always been honest, sometimes too honest it’s bad for her but she still acknowledges the truth. So I take it as the truth.


James, you and Kris Aquino knew that your relationship was heading to this. You were working on it correct? YOU HAD MONTHS AND MONTHS TO WORK ON YOUR MARRIAGE when it was only between you and your wife. Now when the public knows about your troubles, you’re trying to get the public’s sympathy by saying you will do your best to save your marriage because you promised your late mother in law that you’ll take care f your family. Hello?!? You only want to do that now? You only realized that now? And let’s not forget YOU CHEATED. Hello Hope Centeno, Mayen Austria. Freaking cheaters should rot in hell! And now you’re trying to appear as the quite and good guy who is not able to harm and hurt his wife? You are obviously ACTING here.

You had your chances, many of it when it was still in private. Now it’s too late, so stop hurting Kris and your son with all your drama and dialogs. Stop dragging her late mother’s name to get sympathy. Let her have her peace.

And yes you are much smarter than you look (well you do look NICE/KIND and stupid) by refusing to sign a prenup. Really smart. And saying something hurtful to your own son in front of his mother? Wow.

You knew this is coming so accept it and move on. It’s not too late to be man enough to take things as it is. There are some things that once broken, can’t be fixed anymore no matter how you try to glue them back together. And this is one of those things. I totally get Kris. While you’re still in it (marriage), do everything you can, give all you got to still fix it. If it’s too broken that it can’t be fixed and you realize you have nothing left to give in the relationship, it’s better to give up than continue getting hurt. You won’t have any bitterness and regret in your heart because you gave it your all.

You had your faults and she had hers like in any other relationships, celebrity or not we are all still human. It’s just unfortunate that you two weren’t able to overcome them. You will meet someone who’s a better fit for you. Sometimes, we think that because you are right, the other person is automatically wrong. It’s not always the case. You just might not be the one made for her.

Jul 11th, 2010 by niceyfemme

The hardest part of moving on is the first few days, for some it can be weeks or months or even years. For me and Mommy, these last two days since Bambi left has been very hard. It hurts to be in the house because there’s no Bambi waiting for us to come home or to get out of our rooms in the morning. I see her in every corner of the house and it literally hurts as in I feel something that crushes my heart. I feel there’s something stuck in my throat every time I try to control myself.


I’ve been stuffing my mouth with food all day. I really am an emotional eater. I’m scared I have to reach for quick weight loss pills as I have to lose the weight before I go back to Singapore. I’m too emotional. Mommy handles this better than I do. She can control herself. Well I love Bambi so much I’m still in denial sometimes.

I hope as days pass by the pain will lessen more and more but I am sure about one thing; that Bambi will always be that someone who loved us unconditionally and we will never ever forget her. Good thing I have so many photos and videos of her with us we could keep forever.

One of those days (or weeks)
May 5th, 2010 by niceyfemme

That is not really easy for me. Things could be a lot better, way lot better and I’m really trying to be positive and think that all these shall pass and I hope really really soon.

I’ve been super stressed, extra extra stressed than the previous months. Say 4 times the regular dosage of stress I’m used to. So I started losing weight unconsciously. And the weight loss is not just in my head as I confirmed it using two weighing scales so it’s true. I had to look for a new place, actually a temporary one as we have to move the moment Bee comes back. There is evil on Earth I believe and sometimes they are in the form of bad people. Wow. They could really get through the nerves. You just have to compose yourself and not stoop down to their level. If you know they are too irrational then it’s better to just not talk to them, not entertain their being evil. What I do is just stay way from them. Not easy but I did it.

By the way, finding accommodation in Singapore is so not easy especially if you do not want to get some help from agents. Here, almost everyone gets some help from agents while I prefer to just find one myself. I mean, why pay one to two months worth of rent if I can find one myself? Yes it is not easy as a matter of fact I was close to being crazy from all searching the net. Money really can make our lives easier. I want a lot of money.

It is really lonely here without Mommy, Bambi and Bee. I hate it. I want to go home but not in a bad circumstance. I hope all these will be over soon. 🙁

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