Is how it feels like for me when my baby kicks. Sometimes the baby’s movements will catch me off guard but it’s a welcome surprise. I love that feeling. Now it’s like I have a more concrete evidence that my baby is there, moving. Before I only get to see the baby move and feel assured that the baby’s ok during ultrasound. So far I had two. First and second times was to find the heartbeat. Ooh that tormented me but that’s over now and I’m happy. My baby’s so active even at this very young age.

In 3 weeks time, my husband and I will have another ultrasound, that one’s to finally know the gender of the baby. I can’t wait to know! Well I guess there’s no surprise there that I’m so eager since patience is not one of my strengths. So it’s a good thing we can finally know soon. To have to wait almost 5 more months to know my baby’s gender would be very hard on me. Hmmmn I really can’t wait to know. A boy or a girl? I need to know!

Is crazy! I can’t say what I like and what I can and cannot eat. It’s so hard. Forgive me for complaining but this is really difficult for me and to be honest, I feel like it has kicked me out of my comfort zone. See, food used to be my comfort zone. Now, I lost it. This pregnancy has made me feel like I have healthy trim side effects I am experiencing all day everyday since the moment I learned I am pregnant.

One of the thoughts that has helped me get through from day to another is the assurance given to me by my Mom and OB-Gyn, that the moment I pass through my first trimester, I’d feel much better and I’d be able to eat well to the point that I will have to stop myself. Hmmmn… I’m passed my first trimester and I feel much better but not when it comes to food. I have really bad food aversions and I have more of it than the foods I can eat. Did I mention that I still can’t cook? Whewww! This is the longest break I have from cooking.

I guess I just have to wait until things get better.

Wow, I am back. It’s been a long hiatus. I don’t know, maybe it’s because I had a bout of not being able to eat that I had no energy for anything else, including writing in this blog. But now as I am already in my second trimester and feeling much, much better, I am back. I feel like I am 80% of my old self again.

So, pregnancy and food. It hasn’t been a walk in the park for me when it comes to food and eating ever since I learned I am pregnant. Since my 6th week, I started to have food aversions, and what’s worse it i can’t stand the food that I used to love. I even stayed in Singapore thinking this pregnancy would make me eat like a pig and what happened? I wasn’t able to stand any food, and I starved to the point that I was crying everyday because of hunger. And now that I feel much better, I can eat better but I still don’t like rice. I used to love rice all my life, until pregnancy happens. Now I just eat it because I have to.

Another thing is about the food that I was able to eat. I was only able to eat the stuff that I stayed away from before. Like pork and beef, and lots of sweet stuff. It’s just the opposite of myself. Also, now I’m craving for the things I wasn’t particularly fond of, like coffee. Now I want it, so much that I’m thinking of having my own. I can’t stop looking at starbucks coffee makers. But I can ony have decaf.

A big surprise to me is that I eat less now. I’m contented with just enough food and I even have to force myself to eat more whereas before I constantly have to stop myself from eating waayyy too much. I guess it’s a good thing as I don’t want to be as big as Jessica Simpson. We are about the same height so I can’t imagine if I get as big as her. Plus I don’t have all her money to help me get back to my pre-pregnancy shape, so better be careful Niceyfemme.

I’ve always wanted to become pregnant and be a mommy. Since I know that I need to do these kind of things in the perfect time and with the right person, I put a full stop on this dream for years. Fortunately, I reached a point in my life when I am in that place and everything is right for that dream to happen already. I am now married to a wonderful and funny man, and I felt ready for motherhood since last year even before we got married. I am one who do things when it feels right. He asked me to marry him year 2008 but I did not feel like myself is ready for marriage then more so having a baby.

After getting married baby is next but it seemed to be more difficult for me, that’s what my Reproductive Endocrinologist told me. Still it is possible, we just need some help. So I took medications. Wow, it was not easy on me. Those medications made me feel down and low and even caused me to gain a lot of weight. There are times when I was so down I always cry. It is so stressful and the fear of  not knowing if will ever happen or if it is even possible was just haunting me. Add to that other different stress life brings and I was a mess on the inside. I was always mad at the smallest things. Thank God I have my family who understands.

Then by December of last year, a really big stress in my life is finally gone. I guess I was stress free that month and happy. I also reached that point when I just prayed to Him leaving everything up to Him since having a baby is beyond my control. I said to my husband, we will do our part then just pray. If it happens then great I’ll be very happy if not then try again. Trying again is much trickier since time is not on our side. But I have my faith. Knowing the odds, I didn’t keep my hopes too high.

Then I got the biggest surprise of my life. It was positive! That is after feeling sick and feverish for about a week .I was actually really scared to test because seeing that single line really broke my heart many times. I really waited for day 35 before I used a home pregnancy kit. I really couldn’t believe my eyes. I immediately went to Asian Hospital for the first pre-natal check up. Talking about being excited. I was only 4 weeks 4 days then.

Still can’t believe I am now pregnant. My husband is happy same with Mommy and my Dad is so cute and being extra caring with me. Haha he is really excited which is something I somehow knew would happen. Why? He is the one who keeps on asking me when I’ll give him a grandchild. Haha I told him, “Daddy, you know it’s not easy! It’s not like I could just go to the mall and pick the one with the most dots!”

Now I am at 8 weeks and boy it’s not been a walk in the park! I have trouble eating as it makes me feel like vomiting so I can’t eat much but also, I am always hungry! I’ve never felt this hungry before! This kind is different, the type that makes worries me. The first week I lost 2 lbs now I guess I lost even more. I really lost a lot of weight. I even wake up at the middle of the night because of severe hunger.

I stopped using lotions. I am extra careful now. I want to use comodynes but I guess that will have to wait until after.

All of these inconveniences are worth it because after a few months I will have a baby! I so wanted to have a baby that I tried to adopt many times  before and even went to an orphanage just to cuddle a baby. Now I will have my own. Thank You Lord. I am so happy.

Here’s Giselle Sanchez Buencamino giving birth to her second baby…

You have to give it to Giselle for giving birth with no anesthesia at all…

This is through the Lamaze method…

Lamaze method of childbirth – a method that prepares a mother for natural childbirth; the pregnant woman (in classes and at home) practices (usually with the help of a coach) and learns about the physiology of childbirth and techniques of relaxation, concentration, and breathing

Btw, the baby’s a boy.. named Zappa…. Cute baby… lots of hair, like me when I was born hehehe…

Oh you have to push that hard and that long????

Scary….

Just bump into Heide Klum in the red carpet in the 61st Annual Emmy Awards. ehhehhehe

She’s always been gorgeous and svelte.

She’s about to pop next month and after I saw this photo I was a little scared I admit. It’s huge! Her bump is huge.

I guess I have this weird something wherein I dont feel comfortable seeing really big tummies. Saw some videos of pregnant women with multiple births and I cant look at them longer than 4 seconds….

another big one….

Ok then….. wheww!