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Happy Birthday Joleigh!
Mar 30th, 2014 by niceyfemme

Late post. But better than never posting this at all. 🙂

Time definitely flew way too fast! I now have a one year old! I distinctly remember when I was still writing posts about my desire to have a baby and secretly wishing for a girl, even though I kept telling myself that if I have a boy I’d be equally happy. No, God has been so nice to me, granting again my prayers to a T.

It has been a shame that I have not given this blog as much time as I used to like before I got pregnant.  And I could have used this blog to document my baby’s every day and every milestone but no I got so overwhelmed by pregnancy and motherhood and by my laziness. I always have chosen sleep over everything else. Man this new permanent job has made me soooo tired! And sooooooo happy!

Anak thank you for giving me the best year of my life . I’ve never felt so happy seeing someone smile, seeing someone take her first steps and even when I get sneezed at. I can’t wait for the coming days and years that I get to take care of you and love you. It has been a great privilege having you as my daughter and I am so proud and I fell so tall whenever you call me Mama.

Papa and I, together with Mommy and Daddy will do our very best to give you a muchbetter life than we had. All the opportunities in the world as well.  But most importantly I’d try my best to make you feel loved, that you always have me. That I support you no mztter what and with Mama you’ll never be judged. I love you Joleigh. I truly thank God everyday for giving me you?

PS. Thank you for loving Mama’s dede as much as you do. 🙂 I love it that you love them that much.

My baby’s coming out VERY soon
Sep 21st, 2012 by niceyfemme

My I can’t wait. I have been dreaming about having a baby the last fifteen years and it’s finally coming true anytime now.It is overwhelming me to be honest specially since I thought it isn’t even possible for me as I have PCOS. Now I am just waiting for labor to begin. I can’t say I am excited for the labor itself since everybody knows it’s going to be painful but I am excited to the fact that I will soon going to meet and hold my baby in my arms. Just thinking about it makes me cry.

Now I can’t say that I am scared or not scared of labor. I guess my attitude about it is that I have no choice but to go through it anyway so why fret over it? And I have already discussed the use of epidural with my OB and we agreed that by 3-4 cms and when I’m already in active labor then they will allow me to have the epidural. I am just concerned about the pain leading to that 3-4 cms. I might need a dragonfly round silk zafu to use as I meditate through pain. Of course I am going to need all the help I could get since my pain threshold is at ZERO. And did I already mentioned here that I’m not fond of needles as well? This is how much I want to have a baby that I would go through something as scary as this to have one.

Can’t wait to meet you little Joleighta! ♥♥♥

My baby’s things: Car Seat
Aug 10th, 2012 by niceyfemme

Well we still have to wait for a month before she is ready to meet us all but we have already bought her her things. It’s fun buying her clothes. Shopping for her clothes was delegated by myself to myself and Mommy while buying her playpen, stroller and car seat is my husband’s responsibility. It’s so cute how Bee (my husband) would do his research first and changes his mind a lot of times before buying something. Of course I need to approve the appearance first haha, the technical part of it is his job, but really we have to both agree on appearance. We want what is best for our princess. 🙂

Of course price is a big consideration for us so we decided to buy a car seat she could use until she’s about 3 to 4 years old.  For some reason my husband wants orange for our baby haha.. When I was in first grade and you asked me what my favorite color was, I’d say orange so I have no objection about this.

I love all these new stuff we’re having for the baby but for myself I would really appreciate some really good quality utility knives. One’s home should have a good set. For now I’m so happy with all our purchases even though all the spending has reminded me just how pricey it is to have a child but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I waited for our baby girl for a decade and a half so you won’t hear me complaining!

Oh and it’s a GIRL!
Jul 26th, 2012 by niceyfemme

Yes. The God Almighty has answered so many of my prayers since last year. I prayed for a kind hearted man to marry and I did marry one. I couldn’t be happier with our marriage now. Then I prayed for a baby, any gender will do but I prefer to have a girl first. I have always imagined how I would dress her up and how she’ll look in her papa’s arms. Getting pregnant wasn’t easy for me as I have PCOS so I wasn’t even sure if pregnancy wass even possible. I know it is to some women with PCOS but not to all. So to say that I was happy when I saw those two lines would be an understatement. Then he blessed us with a girl too! Wow.

Let me introduce you guys to my baby girl. This is taken at my ultrasound when I was in my 5th month so she’s definitely bigger now. We’ll be able to meet her in more or less two months. I can’t wait.

Thank you my Lord for the life that I have. I will never get tired of thanking you all my life.

I haven’t met you but I already love you
Jul 25th, 2012 by niceyfemme

Is what I tell the baby inside my tummy. It’s such an overwhelming feeling in many dimensions if that is the word. Every time she moves, it’s like she’s caressing my heart. I feel closer and closer to her. From the moment I learned that I am pregnant I already felt protective over her and even more now.

My favorite past time is watching my tummy move. Haha I can’t describe how she does it. But my tummy starts round in shape then the moment she moves my tummy becomes misshapen… Sometimes it kind of makes me nervous as well. Well this is the first time that something/ someone is moving inside my body and I have no control over her at all. At the same time it is a feeling of relief as her movements assures me that she’s fine and healthy and she’s happy. My OBG said that it’s actually good when she moves a lot it means she’s happy inside my tummy.

Now I’m a week shy of my 8th month and sleeping has become a struggle. I have to pee way too many times at night. Plus her movements wake me up as well. It’s like she’s massaging my insides haha. I love you baby… We can’t wait to meet you. Your papa, mama, daddy and mommy are all very excited to hold you in our arms. I can’t wait to start our lives with you in it.

Love for Hanson
Jul 14th, 2012 by niceyfemme

Last March, one of my teenage dreams finally came true. I got to meet Hanson (Taylor specially) in person! I even got shake their hands. Haha I know pathetic for those who aren’t fans but for fellow fans they would totally get me and how I must be feeling then. I dreamt about that moment for 15 years! Wow.

One thing that came back together with my love for them is the love for their music. Read the rest of this entry »

I Will Be A Mommy!
Feb 18th, 2012 by niceyfemme

I’ve always wanted to become pregnant and be a mommy. Since I know that I need to do these kinds of things in the perfect time and with the right person, I put a full stop on this dream for years. Fortunately, I reached a point in my life where I am in that place and everything is right for that dream to happen already. I am now married to a wonderful and funny man, and I felt ready for motherhood since last year even before we got married. I am one who do things when it feels right. He asked me to marry him year 2008 but I did not feel like I am ready for marriage then more so having a baby.

After getting married baby is next on our plan but it seemed to be more difficult challenging for me, that’s what my Reproductive Endocrinologist told me. Still it is possible, we just need some help. So I took medications for a year. Wow, it was not easy on me. Those medications made me feel down and low and even caused me to gain a lot of weight. There are times when I was so down I always cried. It was so stressful and the fear of  not knowing if it will ever happen or if it is even possible was just haunting me. Add to that other different stresses life brings and I was a mess on the inside. I was always mad at the smallest things. Thank God I have my family who understands.

Then by December of last year, a really big stress in my life is finally gone. I guess I was stress free that month and happy. I also reached that point when I just prayed to Him leaving everything up to Him since having a baby is beyond my control. I said to my husband, we will do our part then just pray. If it happens then great I’ll be very happy if not then we just have to try again. Trying again is much trickier since distance is going to be a challenge. But I have my faith. Knowing the odds, I didn’t keep my hopes too high.

Then I got the biggest surprise of my life. It was positive! That was after feeling sick and feverish for about a week .I was actually really scared to test because seeing that single line really broke my heart many times before. I really waited for cycle day 35 before I used a home pregnancy kit. I really couldn’t believe my eyes. TWO LINES!!!! I immediately went to Asian Hospital for the first pre-natal check up. Talking about being excited. I was only 4 weeks and 4 days along then.

Still can’t believe I am now pregnant. My husband is happy same with my Mommy and my Dad is so cute and being extra caring with me. Haha he is really excited which is something I somehow knew would happen. Why? He is the one who keeps on asking me when I’ll give him a grandchild. Haha I told him, “Daddy, you know it’s not easy! It’s not like I could just go to the mall and pick the one with the most dots!”

Now I am at 8 weeks and boy it’s not been a walk in the park! I have trouble eating as it makes me feel like vomiting so I can’t eat much but also, I am always hungry! I’ve never felt this hungry before! This kind is different, the type that worries me. The first week I lost 2 lbs now I guess I lost even more. I really lost a lot of weight. I even wake up in the middle of the night because of severe hunger.

I stopped using lotions. I am extra careful now. I want to use comodynes but I guess that will have to wait until after this whole pregnancy.

All of these inconveniences are worth it because after a few months I will have a baby! I so wanted to have a baby that I tried to adopt many times before and even went to an orphanage just to cuddle a baby. Now I will have my own. Thank You Lord. I am so happy.

 

Wish list
Oct 26th, 2010 by niceyfemme

October’s almost over. This means that I’m getting older again and that Christmas is coming. I have a few things in my wish list.

1. Great health and safety of my parents and our whole family. And the whole world. 🙂

2. A big residential lot in a quite place but not too far to the city. 🙂 I prefer to be the one to design the house. Lottery. Jackpot.

3. Own business. Again.

4. An even nicer Bee.

5. Healthy living Mommy and Daddy.

6. A more patient ME.

7. This stove for my wok. And an LPG tank to go with this. (I can imagine all the wok hei love this can make with my beloved wok.

8. A slow cooker. All the experiments. Yay!

9. House Tofu Mix

10. Secret. 🙂

I’ve been browsing online for the things girls and women want and wow(!) so many great shoes, bags and dresses out there. There are so many gorgeous prom dresses too that make me want to attend a prom again hehe. Yes memories. After a few decades, all this will just become another memory. I hope to keep on updating this blog so I can go back in time through all the photos.

I dream
Aug 31st, 2010 by niceyfemme

When reality hurts too much. That’s what I do to cope. I dream of the dream house I always wanted to build for all of us. With a nice fully equipped kitchen for all my cooking and baking experiments, with a large enough backyard where we can have a nice size pool where we can just chill out, a number of large sliding doors and walls so the living room is well ventilated, high ceilings and I also want a two story nipa hut as a guest house, one like my great grandmother had, with log beds in the bedroom and everything is made of bamboo.

How nice it could be if everything just come true in a snap of my finger.

Thinking things over
Aug 29th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I am in a certain point in my life when I have to think of which direction I should head into. I have always been careful with everything I did in the past but there are things I thought was right that turned out to be wrong. I couldn’t have known about it. But now that I know, I can do something about it. I will be pro-active in my life.

I am actually excited about this. I think I will be good at this new path I am taking. I had a subject back in college about it and I was actually good at it, very good actually. And I truly enjoyed it. I have always been interested in this and to make this my new career would be perfect. It’s not like I can do accounting jobs… That is so not me. I have to be good and more importantly happy with what I will be doing everyday. Innate talent will make this enjoyable for me. My real goal is never having to work a day in my life and that is only possible when I am doing something I love.

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