This is one of the reasons why I don’t like getting attached to people and animals, you get used to their presence and you long for it. You long for the moments with them. That’s why the moment I first met Kaka the sweet cat I knew I shouldn’t let my guard down and let myself get close to her since we don’t own her. Now I miss everything about her, like when she smells my eyes, nose and lips when I’m really tired, when she act all funny because she got scared of some noise, when she sees us like we are in scary halloween costumes and she runs back and forth and lastly even when she’d make up noise in the middle of the night to wake us up.

I want to see her again but it’s just not possible. There is pain in the heart whenever I remember and miss her. What to do? I know that if Kaka can speak up and choose, she will choose to be with us. And we want to keep her too, she always gave us reasons to smile and laugh.

I need to guard myself much more carefully next time, to never let myself get close to someone who might leave me. That’s one reason why I kept on breaking up with Bee during the first few months of our relationship, but through the years we’ve been together, he somehow showed me he is here to stay. But still I have to admit I still need reassurance everyday to calm my crazy nerves.