I dream
Aug 31st, 2010 by niceyfemme

When reality hurts too much. That’s what I do to cope. I dream of the dream house I always wanted to build for all of us. With a nice fully equipped kitchen for all my cooking and baking experiments, with a large enough backyard where we can have a nice size pool where we can just chill out, a number of large sliding doors and walls so the living room is well ventilated, high ceilings and I also want a two story nipa hut as a guest house, one like my great grandmother had, with log beds in the bedroom and everything is made of bamboo.

How nice it could be if everything just come true in a snap of my finger.

Tomato with egg tofu omelette
Aug 29th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I love ripe and red tomatoes. I love tofu too. And I have mentioned that I love eggs like crazy. So I combine all these three favorite ingredients and I come up with this.

Saute ripe tomatoes. Add in egg. Once the egg has set, add in the sliced egg tofu. Yummy and healthy. Satisfying. One can cook this for me and it will be like hearing door chimes. So happy. Tsk tsk. I’m so shallow.

Thinking things over
Aug 29th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I am in a certain point in my life when I have to think of which direction I should head into. I have always been careful with everything I did in the past but there are things I thought was right that turned out to be wrong. I couldn’t have known about it. But now that I know, I can do something about it. I will be pro-active in my life.

I am actually excited about this. I think I will be good at this new path I am taking. I had a subject back in college about it and I was actually good at it, very good actually. And I truly enjoyed it. I have always been interested in this and to make this my new career would be perfect. It’s not like I can do accounting jobs… That is so not me. I have to be good and more importantly happy with what I will be doing everyday. Innate talent will make this enjoyable for me. My real goal is never having to work a day in my life and that is only possible when I am doing something I love.

Not really
Aug 28th, 2010 by niceyfemme

Last Monday I spent the whole day watching videos about the history of the new company. From the biography of the owner, to how he first acquired the first property and all. Even the organizational chart has been tackled. Somehow I felt uninterested. Maybe I knew from then on that I don’t belong there.

The place just doesn’t have the luxury feel into it even when that is main goal of the place. The luxury feel of hotels I love is just not there. Don’t get me wrong. Everything in that place is top of the line luxurious, nothing less than that. Even the videos from the really nice projector is the best I’ve seen, real crisp videos, probably that thing is on the top of projector reviews. It’s like a giant sized television, those flat screen lcd tv’s, or those nice home theater systems, the high end ones. Gut feel I must say.

I guess it’s just not meant to be. It is what it is. I can’t deny my feelings. I hate pretentiousness. I just can’t stand it.

Hard times
Aug 27th, 2010 by niceyfemme

This week has been like a nightmare to me. Scared for our dear lives and disappointing turn of events.

Last Sunday, we had to move from one place to another which turned out to be a flat from hell. The experience is like from those horror/thriller/slasher movies.

Imagine a poorly lighted creepy house filled with antiques and rubbish. Smelled weird too. When we moved in we discovered that a wall is not concrete, a 6×4 feet open space has been covered with school paper and the owner used two cabinets to cover it up. What’s bad is that the owner is just sleeping outside the room. What’s even more scary is the hole in the paper where the owners fist went through to reach for the door knob and go in out room anytime. He also had a weird vibe in him. He kept on saying my name with every sentence he says and it seemed like he’s only interested in talking to me and not the same with Bee.

Then came the time when we needed to use the toilet and we were shocked to discover that the toilet bowl doesn’t flush, the lavatory was clogged and the toilet seemed like it’s not been used for a long time. So many things we discovered that night and I knew I can’t stay there a day longer.  I wasn’t able to sleep that night. I was crying. And Bee wasn’t able to sleep either and just kept on guarding.

The next day right straight from work, Bee and I took all out stuff from that place and planned to move somewhere else who backed out last minute. We got in touch with the agent but he wan’t able to help us find a new place in such a short time that’s why we ended up having nowhere to go. It was already 10:30 p.m and Bee was still calling his friends and colleagues for a temporary place to stay in while I keep on searching online for a new place to rent. I was exhausted from the last days move and lack of sleep and the whole day’s work while we were already hungry and have really bad headache. Add in the rain that made moving and carrying all our clothes and stuff even harder. I was close to breaking down. Last minute we were able to find a place.

Next day we had to work and disappointing things started to unravel in front of my eyes. Things I didn’t sign up for I had to do. Just the hardest things. I realized it’s not my fault that I can’t handle those things. I am a woman who has physical limitations. But if I walk away, I will be disappointing the people closest to my heart, same with myself, I will be disappointing myself too. I have worked hard for this thing for half a year and in just two days it was gone. There’s nothing I can do. My health should be my priority.

I was so down, I was at my lowest point this year. Now I have made a decision and I am scared and very sad. The truth is I just want to lay down in bed with my electric blanket and never leave, I was that scared.  But I have to move on no matter how hard it is. That’s how life is.

I just have to look at the only good thing from this experience. I realized that a Mother’s love and understanding is infinite. I love you Mommy and thank you for never stopping to love and support me. Same with Bee. Now I am truly sure that you are the one for me. I don’t think anyone else can give me the understanding, patience and support you showed me these past days.  Thank you to Mommy and Bee for not giving up on me and Daddy too. I breathe and live because of all of you.

Aug 27th, 2010 by niceyfemme

It is amazing what great PR work can do to a countries image. They can over hype the good things and make it appear better than it seems and in contrast, they will do a complete news black out to negative things to protect their image.

Perfect example is the country where I am now and our home, Philippines. Unfortunately, Philippines is not good in keeping our image on a positive light. Most westerners only think of Abu Sayyaff  when they hear of the name Philippines and terror comes with it. We have great natural resources like close to paradise beaches that are left unknown by the world. Most westerners and even other Asians think that the Philippines is a scary place.

Let me just put it this way. What you hear about this country Philippines is  what is really happening. Without any cover up, no nothing as PR is not one thing this country has invested on compared to this another Southeast Asian country where image is everything. Even the journalists/media is not allowed to go against the government. But I have to admit, all the cover up and great PR releases did this country good.

Sometimes I hate the hypocrisy but I understand why this is done by them. For the tourism. They have better government. I am so jealous for us and I hate that we have such very negative image in the world especially with the hostage taking situation recently which killed eight Hong Kong citizens.

It’s like two men, one is dressed in parish clothing, the other just let the world to see all it’s scars bruises and everything. In reality, they both have something to hide, it’s just the other knows how to handle himself better by wearing better clothes.

Please no hatred here. That could have happened anywhere. It happened in Canada before. It can happen anywhere. Please no judgment as we do not judge the whole Hong Kong for every Filipino who experience abuse in HK.

Aug 27th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I haven’t been able to update for the longest time. Why? Because to say that I had a hard time the last weeks was an understatement. Actually it was hell. Emotionally I was drained.

The thing that I’ve been waiting for half a year and caused me to go through a roller coaster ride of emotions turned out a big disastrous misfit to me. I hate it. There are things that only a man can do, accept it or not. I am not strong enough to do. And that isn’t what I signed up for. Health is still most important for me.

I didn’t want to quit as I am not only thinking about myself here, but of the people I hold dearest to my heart. Given the situation, there’s nothing I can do. I requested for a transfer but denied. Some people can be heartless and close minded. I had no choice but to leave. It was not an easy decision to make, in fact I experienced hell. It didn’t matter that it gave me coverage like North Carolina health insurance would. I had to go on and think of other ways to do. I have to. I can’t be that selfish to only think of myself.

Maxwell Hainanese Chicken Rice
Aug 12th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I have always had a quest to try and taste the best. Hainanese Chicken Rice (HCR) edition this time. I have read about one particular stall that most food bloggers and even a chef cum Tv Host have agreed to this. So we headed to a particular hawker center but too bad, we came in too late. They ran out of chickens. So I will save about that for later. Bee and I just had to settle to another chicken rice stall very close to the one I am referring to. Normally I wouldn’t try a stall just because of it’s proximity but this one has a long queue too. I don’t know if that’s because people find their chicken rice as good too, or they just settle to this one because the best one is closed already.

Maxwell Hainanese Chicken Rice stall has a pretty exterior and long queues of people that’s why we got curious and decided to try it as well. They are the only stall with long queue that night.

The photos in their stall sure look appetizing.

I am a roasted HCR girl. One of the criteria for good HCR for locals is tender meat/flesh, like smooth and silky. And you can see in these photo that the meat is silky soft.

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Tofu madness
Aug 10th, 2010 by niceyfemme

I’ve been addicted to tofu and tau kwa (or tokwa) for a long time now, but this addiction has reach a different level in the last few days. I only want to eat tofu and tau kwa to the point where Bee and I will head to places where they possibly serve tofu. Unfortunately, in the area where we currently live now, there’s not a lot of hawker places nearby. We have to go to a mall that’s 10-15 minutes walk from here and it is mall food, I want hawker food.

Of course, eating out is more expensive than if you cook at home. Another thing, one serving is not enough for me! So most of the time I buy two servings and with rice it’s not cheap. It’s also not wise to eat out often.

Then last night, our friend who cooks for a living cooked a lot of food for us all. Can I just say yummy? Ah jie cooked chicken curry which was so goooood! It’s not like how we Filipinos have it but it’s wonderfully delicious. Then a veggie dish. I watch his pro self cook and when I tasted that very simple dish I was hooked! Then I got an idea to use that same process with tofu. And it was a success! This has been a very successful experiment for me. YUM.

Tau Kwa with bean sprouts and lots of red and green chili.

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